The Ramblings of a "Mad Man"

I recently went through another in and endless streak of viruses… The interesting thing is that when I am sick, I always seem to have more anxiety now. When I was younger and more prone to anxiety and panic, I actually felt like a real sickness was a relief if that makes any sense. I guess when I was younger, when I was sick it gave me a legitimate reason to feel like crap. Rather than feel like crap for no known reason (anxiety). It was almost a relief to feel bad and have a good reason. Now I am older and anxiety is, for the most part, controllable and my way of dealing with sicknesses has changed. Now when I feel bad I am more prone to anxiety. It seems like now I am legitimately sick which keeps me laid out with nothing to do but think. For me, that is pretty much the worst thing I can do. I hate spending time analyzing my feelings and what they may be caused by. I am, after all, very obsessive. LOL. Anyway, I just thought I’d throw that out there.

Take care,
OE